This is Not a pity party so please don't do that. If you choose to follow along, and even respond, understand that this is therapy for me. However, I can only hope that in some small measure I can make a positive difference for someone out there that may be suffering and feeling hopelessness.
My lifestyle, my environment were some reasons doctors gave for why people get pancreatic cancer. Can't say I would disagree with their analysis, since I worked in a high stress environment as a federal undercover agent for 13 straight years. I laundered millions and millions of dollars for the old infamous Pablo Escobar drug cartel. My experiences all began in the days of the Cocaine Cowboys, originating out of Miami in the early 80s and continued through my retirement in 1994. I loved my daily bottle of scotch and my three packs of smokes; and the stress that I had learned to cope with, kept my weight down. I was happy living that rich life style of a dirty money-laundering banker with fast cars, fist class air and five star hotel suites, and I wouldn't have traded those experiences for anything. When you get too close to drugs and money at the same time it tends to intensify situations at hand. Guns, booze and partying don't mix very well...
Did this environment and lifestyle contribute to my disease? It's Possible! I suppose...
Great job! I'm so proud and thrilled that you are doing this.
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ReplyDeleteFight, fight, fight Ralph. Kick your pancreas' ass.
ReplyDeleteThis is Cathy by the way. I am not sure why i am known as "Sweet Child o mine" (but i kinda like it).
Deletesweet and it will happen
DeleteLook out cancer! You don't know who your messing with!
ReplyDeleteI shall proudly join the journey with you. I support the spirit of you as you continue to live your life out loud and proud. You clearly are a fighter and I stand by your side along with your beloved, loyal family. I am still waiting for a ride in your car with you behind the wheel fast and furious. Love Jogi
ReplyDeleteWe believe in you Ralph. Go and beat this cancer up. We know you can do it!!!
ReplyDeleteRalph - You know I was with you on some of those wild journeys and now you are on one of your toughest ones...it's nothing you can't handle. Charr Lee and I are with you all the way on this one. Let's take this one to court and put the bad guy away, just like you've always done..love ya buddy
ReplyDeleteKeep fighting Ralph. We are pulling for you
ReplyDeleteGrab on real hard and stay as long as you can. Behind you, and on either side of you the old special agent group will be there, making fun and every now and then attempting to goose you as you bend over to grab that root...John Everett
ReplyDeleteThey used to blame the that kind of logic on the effects of agent orange maybe it's now the effects of Saddam Desert sand
DeleteI am with you on your journey, my friend. May God bless you.
ReplyDeleteI can attest to the high stess environment in which you worked. I, along with other S/As tried to mitigate the danger, but you were too good. You were always readily accepted by the bad guys, and that made our job more difficult. You were, and still are the best UCA that I've ever had the pleasure of working with.
ReplyDeleteKeep your chin up and, as JE said, grab on real hard. You've beat the odds before.
Al R
Good to hear from you Alfonse.
DeleteHang in there Ralph.. At times you may think you're in this alone, but there is always someone behind you thinking about you. We'll keep you in your prayers.
ReplyDeleteJoe Rouleau
I always needed the buds that had my back.
Deletehey Ralph, ...hum, what would Billy B do...??....chin up,...I do also remember those UC days, and share many of those memories with you....they still bring a smile to my face....hang in there...we all just do the best we can...(aka Jackie)
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